The Mommy’s Still Homebound

After months of contemplation and yaya search, I remain uncertain on the issue of returning to work. This has been the question in my mind for months now, whether it is truly ever worth it to delegate the task of “caring for Miguel” to some stranger so I could work fulltime.

At one point in October, I had been ready (or so I thought), so I sent an application to Chevron. I was contacted the next day and was asked to report in November. Obviously I couldn’t. Well I didn’t know they would ask me to work that soon! I had no yaya and nanay was scheduled to spend a month-long stay in Singapore. I requested if I could start in December (while bugging friends and family to help me find a yaya, which I soon realized was no easy feat), though I know it was quite impossible as the post needs to be filled urgently. So I missed the opportunity. After a few moments of regret, I was back to present again–no yaya, no work, no worries.

Next week a prospective yaya is scheduled to arrive finally. So then I will have to confront the issue again. I have the entire 2008 ahead of me. Another year full of possibilities. I will have to decide soon.